等不及明早起床 Can't Wait Until The Morning

我親手種的草莓哦!  The strawberries are from my own garden.

曾經，生命並不是這樣。

曾經，我怕上床，也怕起床； 受不住上床後、久久無法入睡，也面對不了起床後、生命的支離破碎。

許多傷害的手爪、陰影環繞，許多霸凌的嘴臉、晝夜侵噬； 而我卻拼命努力、乞憐、渴望著他們的愛.....

曾經夜半醒來，我進入書房，一遍又一遍唱著自譜的「雖然無花果樹不發旺」......直到天亮。  誠然，「我的心等候主，勝於那守夜的等候天亮.....」

終於，我的神我的主介入； 祂至高的神權其實一直在我們中間，只是我看不見。 只是，過去我一直更在乎「人」怎樣對待我。

終於覺醒。

不再自憐，更不再乞憐。終於，我只要耶穌，並祂的十字架！

終於，因著耶穌，並仰靠祂的聖靈，我有能力去面對、甚至去憐愛所有的霸凌與傷害。

如今，我等不及上床，更等不及起床。 新的一天，新的生命； 我要高聲歡呼、並且宣告： 每早晨，祂的慈愛和憐憫都是新的！

即令是一碗簡簡單單的早餐。

My life wasn't used to be like this.

I was often being bothered by people who abused me and I never stopped hoping that they would one day love me, to an extent that I was not able to enjoy my life.

But my Lord my God had intervened and everything was changed.

Now, no more depression and no more self-pity.  I look forward only to seeing my Lord Jesus every morning.

By the power of His Spirit, I am even capable to face those abuses and bullies with love and compassion.

I now acclaim and I proclaim: His steadfast love and His mercy are new every morning!

Yes, even in this little bowl of cereal.......